A few weeks back I found out that a someone very close to me was struggling with a horrible drug addiction, i.e shooting up meth. That was bad. Then a week later an old friend whom I hadn't spoke with in a number of years overdosed in her jail cell and died after being arrested. To make matters worse her boyfriend who she had a 4yr old with committed suicide the next day. This left their child and her other 2 children without a mother. although these situations were slightly removed from me, they broke my heart. The world just seemed so ugly and I was just numb. Although it still saddens my heart, I am much improved and feel somewhat renewed. I have a habit of mothering my friends, trying to take care of their problems. There was and is nothing that I could have done to prevent this but I received some hope after finding out that the person struggling with addiction managed to get sober and has been for almost 3 months. It will be a long hard road ahead but it's a start.
Now off the sad stuff.......
I sleep a lot. Like a whole lot. Like 15hrs a day at my last count.
My therapist has been suggesting getting a sleep study done to see how much of my depression is tied to my horrible sleep patterns. I had been putting it off for awhile but finally went in to see a doctor about. After speaking with my doctor he came to the conclusion that I may actually have narcolepsy. I wish I would've had a camera because I burst out laughing. All I could picture was that chick from Deuce Bigalow with her hair tied back so she wouldn't drown in her soup.
I have my sleep study scheduled for this week so it should be interesting. I have to stay over night and also the following day. Sounds like fun.
I will be trying to list some things this week as I need to get back into the groove. And I'm broke as shit so that's a big motivator. Speaking of being broke......
Check out my fabulous new tattoo. Something I definitely didn't need but wanted oh so bad! I have always been a fan of Beetlejuice but while purusing Etsy I found an awesome print by Brittnay Smith at bsmithereens that I felt would make the most awesome tattoo. Check her out she is fabulous! And if you happen to live in Hawaii shoot her a message because she also does tattoos! Check her out on Facebook too!
My tattoo was done by Bill Barrett at Royal 1 Tattoos and I couldn't be happier. Just got it done Friday so it's still really new.
Well, guess that's about it for now. xoxoxo
